All of the tests are finally done. The last one was this morning for a Cat Scan. This week was swallowed whole by the coming and going to the clinic. Now all that remains is getting the results. We won't know the answers until next Thursday. It could go any one of a number of ways. It rests in God's hands now. That really isn't a bad place to be.

Honestly, I feel a bit weary tonight. Most of it is the emotional let down of getting past all of the exams. My habit is to gear up some for things like this. Three times in a week is a lot of getting ready for the unexpected. It seems like one should be at their best in times like this. I am not the only one traveling this road. My idea is that you should be at your best for others even if they approach you with needles. Some of the fatigue is just having the huge shift in the normal pattern of living. There were a few nights when sleep did not come easy. My exercise routine feel by the wayside. It has been a long week.

Vince Lombardi once said that fatigue makes cowards of us all. His aim was to push his football team into peak physical condition so they would be at their best with the game on the line. His record speaks for itself seeing as the Super Bowl trophy is named after him. Coach Lombardi was absolutely right. When we become tired in any area of our life then we lose our edge. What makes it worse is how it bleeds over into each area of our life. The key is to keep yourself from becoming so fatigued that you make bad decisions or fail to meet your opportunities. We become bored to the point we fail to follow God's guidance. We become afraid of any new risk from the fear of losing what we do have.

This is still one of my concerns should my diagnosis prove true. How can you balance all of the things that will be happening? Maybe it is just one of those things you have to learn for yourself. I know that you cannot begin to succeed at this without God's help. King David let himself become bored and fatigued in his life. It was the beginning of real problems for him. Perhaps there are no answers tonight other than just thinking out loud. Maybe it will all look different after a night of rest. We shall see.

Bro. Trey