If a blog starts again after a lengthy break does it make a sound?  My guess is it is a quiet event in general.  Returning to the blog is odd after so much time away.  We will explain some of the reasons why there was an absence with ope someone might notice.  The explanation may not seem too overwhelming to you but it was to me.  Some who may return to this blog already know the reasons.  But perhaps someone will stumble onto this site and gain insight for their journey.

Reason number one for the time away is I became ill yet again.  The story really is long and a tad complicated but we will aim for brevity.  Two doctors thought my problem was asthma.  Both treated me with medication for that diagnosis.  Turns out that asthma was not what ails me.  I had the nerve to ask one of the physicians for a test on my heart.  Something was in my mind about my chemotherapy that could relate to my troubles.  I was once again smarter than my doctors.  It didn't take long to get new medicine to go with a visit to a cardiologist.  This only led to more problems.

The asthma drugs along with my first heart medication nearly did me in literally.  Words cannot explain the depths a person goes when such chemicals do not agree with your symptom.  Not an area of my life was unaffected.  Let me save you the drama by just stating it was the lowest I ever felt in my life.  Not even cancer or chemo ever did such damage to me.  Whatever lies beyond depression would describe my journey.  It took weeks to begin climbing out of the darkness.  I underwent a cardiac procedure, received new meds and slowly began to improve.  Further prognosis will come in future weeks.  My hope is that all of these steps along with God's help will let me regain my health.  That is my determination.

I did not write simply because it was no time for me to do so.  My thoughts were too often black with despair.  Perhaps it is true that Poe wrote some great works while in such a state but neither am I a Poe.  Thinking you are in your last day alive tends to leave inspiration to be creative a tad lacking.  Much is improved with signs daily there is real hope.  So we return to blogging.  We can talk later of changes here and there but will stop for the evening.  May you fully realize that someone out here understands the consuming pain of the darkness.  God knows and so do I.

Bro. Trey

Just a notice that the blog should be up and going again late Sunday night.  We took time away for personal reasons.  It is time again to rejoin the fray of blogging.

Bro. Trey